in jasons house and i'm so turned on and am holding him close and wanting to have sex and he teases me and leaves. it is dark. i look down from the second story window to watch the top of his van as he goes to leave. i can see the back of the van as it pulls forward and then reverses. it repeats this step. i hear a muffled voice saying don't jump. or maybe it says jump. i go to the front window to see the front of the van and it takes off and leaves. i jump out the second story window onto the ground where the van was. head first. crumpling myself. i can feel it even in sleep. i try. to die. then above me from the cold hard ground, covered in snow, i see an asian man as he prepares to jump from the window. i was afraid of him. he jumps too - but here things reverse a few times and repeat. eventually. i decide not to jump and am reversed back, roll back up the hill and am sucked up into the window. then i see the position change. the asian man jumps but this time to land on his feet and crumple himself. he lands further down the hill.
i am small a small version of myself (at this point i am a man in a sort of eskimo suit i think) and i am under a table in the snow, outside, near where the asian man lay. i am looking up the hill where the van left and it is black darkness and cold snow. i can see a path where the van went. there is bright blood piled around me in snow.
a vehicle comes, making sounds noises or not. i lay protected from it as i am under this table, aware.
it sweeps past me shoveling snow. i see across the way another table under which one side has bloody snow labeled 'contaminated snow' and the other side has white snow and says 'fresh clean snow come and get it.'
i am pushed along in my hiding place and the view then sweeps to the left... straight ahead if i were looking from the window of the house (though i'm not at this point)
sweeping over snowy dark ground and i see a small jeep coming. view trudge to just past the road where snow has been plowed for passage and i zoom in close, about two feet below the surface of the snow. into the ice. i see the little ice shards up close they are about two inches from the view and they start to shake and move and separate and clear ice forms. from the left side of the screen comes the little truck and i see it is very small now only a few inches and it burrows into the ice and cuts across at this two foot deep level.
i awaken in the sun.
